this past saturday....

so i went out with the girls this saturday and i had a blast... stacy and i needed a night out together.. we seriously had a good time... im stocked about our camping/floating trip in june it should be a blast... i cant wait im just so stocked that i can have some fun and new expeirences...

men

I dont know why i fall in love with the wrong men.. ive been in love twice and it seems to turn out wrong... fist guy i fell for was older than me and it didnt work out cause he was an asshole and still is.. the second one was so sweet... we got/get along great he just isnt willing to give us a chance.. he says there is no thrill there.. which i dont get cause he isnt the type to be a playa even though my friend thinks he is... i dont know i need my girls night out and im so glad its this saturday ive told myself im not going to cry tomorrow night and i hope i dont...

this saturday.....

so my friends and i are goin out for a girls nigth saturday.. i cant wait.. im in need of some girl time... people are just gettin on my nervous... well only a certian someone... he is just plan stupid so im done... i swear it... when im over him then maybe ill be able to hang out with him... i know i have said im over him ut im not completely... i dont get how guys cant see who is right for them and they wont give someone like me a chance... its so frustrating...

last night

so i went on a date last night... it was pretty great... went out to eat, to a movie and then bowling... fun times... we will see if there will be another one but it seems like there will be one...

look back...

SO I WAS READING ALL MY OLD POSTS... I GUESS I HAVENT UPDATED U ON WHATS GOIN ON WITH WOOD AND I.. SO I WENT TO GIVE HIM HIS BIRTHDAY PRESENT 3 WEEKS AGO THIS FRIDAY AND HE INFORMS ME THAT HE IS "KINDA" SEEING SOMEONE.. O MAN WAS I SHOCKED, PISSED AND HURT.. SO COME TO FIND OUT THAT THIS "KINDA" GIRLFRIEND DUMPED HIS ASS FOR HER EX... LOL.. I GUESS THATS WHAT YOU GET WHEN U THINK SOMEONE BETTER HAS COME ALONG... I TOLD HIM THE OTHER NIGHT THAT HE NEEDED TO LOOK DEEPER WHEN HE IS LOOKIN FOR SOMEONE TO LOVE.. BEAUTY ISNT EVERYTHING... ITS JUST A MASK TO MAKE U THINK PEOPLE ARE NICE.. IF THEY CANT BE OPEN WITH YOU THEN THAT PERSON ISNT WORTH IT.. THATS THE WAY I FIGURE IT... DONT THINK WOOD WILL EVER SEE WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME AND HIM BUT THATS HIS OWN FAULT.. I CAN SEE IT SO CLEAR... HE JUST ISNT WILLIN TO GIVE IT A CHANCE.. HE TOLD ME THERE ISNT ANY THRILL THERE.. PLEASE IF U CAN SLEEP WITH SOMEONE THERE IS SOMETHING THERE... ANYWHO I WISH HIM ALL THE LUCK.. HE HAS THERE ARE SOME POSSABLITIES HE IS LOOKING INTO... I TOLD HI I WOULDNT BE HERE FOREVER AND I DONT PLAN ON WAITIN... OUR FRIENDSHIP IS GOOD AND THATS ALL THAT MATTERS... IF HE ISNT COMFORTABLE BEING AROUND ME CAUSE HE CANT TRUST HIMSELF THEN WHATS THAT TELL HIM... ON IM DONE BLABBING.... PEACE!!!

6TH FOLDER, 6TH PICTURE

SO I WAS READING THE PEACOCK BLOG AND THOUGHT I WOULD DO THIS AS STACT DID.. U GO INTO YOUT PICTURES GO TO UR SIXTH FOLDER AND GET THE SIXTH PICTURE OUT THEN U EXPLAIN WHAT THE PICTURES ABOUT... SO HERE GOES.. THIS IS MY DAD IT WAS TAKIN LAST SUMMER AND WE WERE HAVING A COOK OUT AT OUR HOUSE. MY MOM WAS PRETTY SICK BUT FELT OK THAT DAY TO HAVE FAMILY OVER.. ANY WHO I WAS MESSIN AROUND WITH THE CAMERA AND TOOK THIS ONE OF MY DADDY.. HE LOOKS PRETTY GOOD HERE.. THATS ABOUT IT....

sittin at Stacys house

so im tryin to get my life in order.. tryin to get out of debt, move out of the rents house and have a life. my parents think that i can have a life with them but i cant. i cant do anything that i want to cause i have to ask permission or have them asking me where im going and they constantly call no matter where im at or who im with. it is just sufficating sometime.. so im here or i was at stacys house earlier today and we talked like we usually do... i try to keep in contact with my friends as much as i can.. i can be suffucating to them im sure... im the type of person who likes to talk abotu anything.. so when stacy got sick of hearing my b.s. she told me to create a blog so i can just get it all off my mind.. so i did.. anywho ive been sittin in my room thinkin crap over and have come to realize that im happy in my life so far.. yes i want to do alot of stuff and i want to get out of the rents house and yes they do sufficate me but im happy.. i couldnt ask for a better group of friends or family... i want to grow more in my life and do things for me and my son and im slowely on the way to doing those things. im cuttin out the drama thats in my life.. i just cant really stand it anymore.. i try to be honest with everyone, even if its going to hurt their feelings.. i hate to do that and i usually appoligize once i have calmed down but still it does suck to be told that your a whore... just an example... anywho lets see.. wood and i are just friends nothin else... im ready to settle down but i still like to have fun and untill i find someone to settle down with and raise a family i dont see myself not having fun with people... i called today about school... i haev a phone conferince on the 9th at 9am i think ill have to double check.. my job is great... im just content right now with life and i apperciate all my friends that have been there for me and has listent to my b.s. for the past 6 years... this year is going to be different i can just feel it... so if i start gettin back to my oldself give the kick in the butt that i need and remind me what i want to do and give me the advice u want to give cause i do listen it may take me a little bit to put it into use but i will remember and try to us it... thanks for readin...

just dont know....

it Saturday and im at home hangin out with my son... kinda boring but nice. i cant wait to get my own place. the rents are driving me nuts. i got to wait till i get more hours though and get to keep them before i even think about lookin for our own place. men are driving me nuts. i just dont understand them. one minute they want to be with you the next they dont. its crazy. i swear if i meet one more man who wants to be with me one minute and then a day later isnt sure im going to start shooting them all... jk... seriously though im done with men for awhile. i feel like i should just use them like they use us woman.. i just dont know anymore.

Whats happened this year....

I cant remember if i let you all know this already but i started a new job. I found out on the 2nd that i was gettinthe job. I like it. Still going threw orentaion and they are still workin out my schedule but i love it. I go into peoples homes and take care of their sick loved ones. It a good job. Anywho besides that I have been plannin my sons birthday party. It still a month away but birthdays are my think... lol... the whole wood issues are gettin better. we have talked stuff over and are still friends. i have a feeling he is going to end up being one of my best friends. we just click its weird. he is stillworking out issues in his own personal life but i love it when he asked me what i think would be the best thing for him to do and i do the same with him.. Quincys doin a great job in school i just cant stand the district we are in. im thinkin about lookin into moving us up north in the next year.. not to far north maybe pekin or tremont. i want to look into the schools that will be the best to help Quincy with his speech imparment. well thats baout it for now...

last couple of weeks....

SO THE WEEK OF CHRISTMAS WAS KINDA CRAZY.. I WORKED WITH GRANNY AND WE CLEANED 12 HOUSES IN THREE DAYS.. CHRISTMAS WAS AWESOME... WUINCY HAD A GREAT TIME... WOKE ME UP AT 6 IN THE MORNING TO LET ME KNOW THAT SANTA HAD COME TO SEE HIM.... HE LOVED ALL HIS GIFTS... NEW YEARS WAS OK.. I THINK I SHOULD HAVE STAYED HOME THOUGH.... MY FRIEND STACY WATCHED MY SON FOR ME WHICH WAS NICE.... SO ANYWHO ON JANUARY 2ND I FOUND OUT THAT I GOT OFFERED A NEW JOB AND I TOOK IT... ILL BE A CNA AGAIN BUT MAKING MORE MONEY THAN I DO NOW. MY GOAL IS TO SAVE ENOUGHT MONEY TO MOVE OUT OF MY PARENTS HOUSE AND FOR QUINCY AND I TO GET OUR OWN LITTLE PLACE... IM ALSO PLANNING ON GOING BACK TO SCHOOL THIS SUMMER... I THINK THATS ABOUT IT...