TWILIGHT THE MOVIE

IT TOTALLY SUCKED... IF YOU READ THE BOOK DON'T GO SEE THE MOVIE.... I LOVE THE BOOK BUT NOT THE MOVIE... WAS REALLY DISAPPOINTED IN IT... THEY NEEDED TO GET INTO THE CHARITERS MORE THAN WORRYING ABOUT HURRY THREW THEM... I WAS REALLY DISAPPOINTED.... NOT SURE IF I'LL GO SEE NEW MOON WHEN THAT MAKE IT INTO A MOVIE...

TWILIGHT

so i just got done reading the book twilight and it was awesome.. can't wait to read new moon and the rest... i'm going to go see the movie wednesday night with my cuz Caity so that should eb fun she has already seen it twice but she wants to see it again... hehe... if you read the book let me know what you thought...

ever feel like your always put second??

I hate that I can let some man make me feel like i'm nothing.. I hate to always when i'm down my girlfriends to tell me that they are the ones that love or my son to give to try and make me feel better. I just wish for once that someone besides my friends and family would want to tell me that they love me or just want to be with me. I'm sick of saying when he comes around i'll know it. I flippin sick of waiting around for someone and when i try to be with the person i like its seems like he always has an excuse. o he just wants to be friends one day then well lets hang out then i feel bad i took advantage of you lets just be friends. I know i let this happen to myself but i just feel lost. I just want to get away. I don't want to feel like i need to drink because i'm in a bad mood or because someone pissed me off lets drink or i'm bored theres nothing else to do and everyone else is busy lets drink. I was asked tonight if i know what the meaning of life was and you know what i really couldn't come up with anything. I got afive year old and he is my life but what happens when he grows up and i'm left alone.. what then?? i guess i'm just sick of feeling misreable all the time because thats how i feel most days. I put up a good front but some days it just crumbles and i don't know what to do. I sick of worrying about loosing my car, or a fmaily memeber or trying to be something i'm not around family. I just want to be me and i want someone to realize i'm not perfect and i will fail. I don't want to grow old and my son be the only joy in my life. i want more damm it and it just seems like i;m not ment to have it...

HELPING....

SO I'M THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO LIKES TO HELP PEOPLE WHEN THEY NEED IT... YOU KNOW LEND A HELPING HAND OR JUST LET THEM TALK WHEN THEY NEED TO AND NO ONE WILL LISTEN TO THEM.. BUT NOW I HAVE COME ACROSS SOMEONE THAT I'M SURE WANTS HELP BUT HE WONT LET ME HELP HIM... WELL HE DOES TO A POINT THEN HE GETS PISSY ABOUT IT.. I JUST DON'T WANT TO SEE HIM HURT HIMSELF IN THE PROCESS BUT I SEE IT HAPPENING NOW... HE IS A GOOD GUY BUT HE IS JUST LOST RIGHT NOW AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO... ANYONE HAVE ANY SUGGESTIONS???

WOOD

SO I KNOW I WAS TALKING ABOUT WOOD AND HOW I WAS FALLING FOR HIM... BUT ITS NOT GOING THAT WAY... I GUESS WHICH IS KINDA NICE BECAUSE IF I'M GOING TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL I DON'T THINK I HAVE TIME TO REALLY WORK ON A RELATIONSHIP SO ITS NICE TO JUST HAVE HIM AS A FRIEND.. I NEED ONE THAT DOESN'T KNOW MY WHOLE HISTORY AND ONLY LIKES ME FOR ME AND NOT MY PAST.. SO ANYWHO AMY IS HAVING A PARTY THIS FRIDAY AND HE IS COMING BUT ALSO HIS EX IS COMING WELL I THINK SHE IS COMING SO IT SHOULD BE AN INTERESTING NIGHT... I DON'T THINK HE WILL STAY BUT IT WOULD BE NICE TO JUST HANG OUT LIKEN WE DID LAST WEEKEND... WE WILL SEE WHAT HAPPENS...

NEW FRIENDS

SO LAST NIGHT I WENT OVER TO MY FRIENDS AMY'S HOUSE TO HANG OUT AND WATCH MOVIES AND WOOD CAME OVER AND WE ALL HAD A GOOD TIME. HE IS SO SWEET AND CUTE... HE WAS PLAYING WITH THE KIDS AND THE HANGING OUT WITH US. I'M GREATFUL THOUGHT BECAUSE HE CAME OVER EVEN THOUGHT HE WAS SICK AND HE DIDN'T COMPLAIN OR ANYTHING AND THEN HE APPOLOGIZED FOR LEAVING SO EARLY.. I DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT HIM BUT SOME FRIENDS THINK I'M FALLING FOR HIM AND I THINK I AM BUT I JUST DON'T WANT TO FALL TO HARD.. HE IS A GREAT GUY AND I'M JUST GLAD I HAVE HIM AS A FRIEND.... SO THE FIRST PIC IS OF WOOD PLAYING COPS WITH THE BOYS AND THE SECOND ONE IS OF HIM TEACHING THE BOYS ABOUT PINK FLOYD AND HOW THEY WILL UNDERSTAND MORE ABOUT IT WHEN THEY GET INTO HIGH SCHOOL... IT WAS CUTE...