this weekend

so friday night i staied home and chilled out with quincy... saturday i got up at seven and went to my grannys house and we had to strip a pharmace floor... then i went home and took a nap and then got ready to go out with friends... had a good time till robert wanted to fight wood over something that was stupid... i dont get men... they are so territorial about things.... i guess u get that in small towns... but damm it we had a good time anyways.... i can say that im a truely happy today....

Christmas

So I have almost everythign bought, all i need to get isQuincy some batman slippers to go with his house coat i got him... He didn't ask for much this year.. he wanted a "real" bat, goosebump movie, christmas movie and christmas book... I think i hav done very well i got everything but the REAL bat... lol

WOOD

so i think i've come to the realization that we can't even be friends... he doesn't even want to try at being friends.. he never wants to hang out with me alone... it drives me nuts.. i feel like i'm the only one workin in the damm friendship and he isn't doing anything... i told him that and he had nothing to say to that... i'm done... seriously done trying to prove myself to people... i want to be fuckin happy i don't want to make other people happy if it make me miserable....

The weekend

I know its not up yet but its Sunday morning at 5 am and i just got home.. I had a blast this weekend... i watched my niece friday night and tonight i went out with Joey and Colette... then i went to a Chases house and hung out with him.... my grandparents just got Quincy's chirstmas pictures taken so thats nice. anywho i'm tired and i'm hittin the sack.... peace

BLAH

SO MY FRIENDSHIP WITH WOOD HAS BEEN GOING PRETTY WELL.... WE ARE HANGING OUT THIS NEXT WEEKEND AND WE ARE BOTH GETTING TO KNOW EACH OTHER JUST AS FRIENDS... I KNOW THAT IF THIS DOESN'T GO ANY FURTHER THAN FRIENDSHIP THATS FINE WITH BOTH PF US.. I PERSONALLY THINK THAT IF HE LET IT WE WOULD BE GREAT FOR EACH OTHER BUT HE IS STILLL WORKING THREW HIS ISSUES....

Evening with friends

so i went over to my friend amy's house tonight and Wood and Joey came over. all the boys were there also and they had fun picking on Wood and Joey.. since Wood and i have decided to just be friends we really haven't hing out because of him not being able to trust himself around me but we had a good time tonight. I felt like i was Nikki again.. I wasn't someone i was trying to be to impress someone. I had a freat time without alcohol and thats the best part. Don't get me wrong i like to have a drink but i'm sick of having it there everytime i do something. now this coming weekend is going to be crazy.. Wood and i are going to play some guitor heroe becuase i was instructed by Jim that i needed to practice becaouse i suck... and then saturday Amy is throwing a christmas party and that should be fun. I'm not sure if Woods coming or not. I would like him to be there but there is this issue with his EX being there and if he isn't comfoertable around her i don't want him to put himself in the position that he would feel weird.. anywho i had a great time tonight and so did my son and thats all that matters... it nice to have places to go when i need to get away from the rents...

Still finding myself.....

so i went to take my entrence exam to get see what classes i needed to take for math and reading.... i totaly suck when it comes to algebra... its like it all went out the window once i graduated.... but my reading score was pretty damm good... so anywho i'm going to go back to school and i'm thinking about going to ICC for either nursing or OTA... i'm really nervous but i know i can do it and i plan on moving up to peoria in the next year with my son which will be hard because we haven't lived anywhere but with my parents but its a good move for us...
so i have come to realize that i'm happy with my life.. there are always going to be up and down areas but i'm happy right now with everything... i love christmas it is one of my fav holidays... i also learned that i'm a forgiving person... i can't hold a grudge and i'm really too nice to people who don't deserve it but i can't help it its me and i can't change who i am for someone...